I write this as the cold has arrived. The day is a drizzled wash of a blur upon my window. Grey clouds are brooding and the sky looks bruised, somewhat. Dappled and mosaic like. A typical UK day, perhaps. I have started to wonder on exactly how much sunshine the UK does get. I believe there is always a chance of rain here, still, it is what is and Gaia obviously feels like a quenching from the heavens :)
I find I am losing myself more and more in violin these days. I have been learning to play violin for just under a year now and whereas I have a long way to go, I am getting better with each day. When I first started playing, I wondered if I would able to delve into the beauty of the violin due to having broken my left elbow years ago but it has been therapeutic to the injury and a kind of physiotherapy in some ways. A hurdle is not a hurdle if the passion is strong enough, I have learned albeit an adjustment.
There is something about the violin that has captured my heart for many moons. The astringent lament of a soulful sound. To me, the violin is the tone of soul, a gateway to freedom, a release, a companion, a gypsy dressed in strings that lets your emotions run free. Now, I just have to improve on vibrato and happy days, as we say here :) It always astounds me to see the violin being played. So many ways adapted and brought forth. An astonishing instrument of catharsis I think.
I have been thinking a lot lately about this realm called earth or to be more precise, the universe. I read of late that 40% of scientists now believe this is a holographic universe. Makes sense to how I have always felt in a lot of ways. A stranger in this place, someone who has visited this plain many times but I do truly believe this is my final time around.
If the universe is holographic, are we merely flesh and bone wandering in a prison or does consciousness have a say? Consciousness just is...it is love and energy. Have we been placed here to evolve and be studied? To see how consciousness and empathy play out? Has the holographic universe been hijacked from what it originally was and we are now in a game not so different to The Hunger Games?
I have my own conclusions and not everyone will agree or entertain them, nevertheless, I think or rather feel, that this existence is akin to a merry go round. We enter here and evolve (even if it is a game and for however many cycles it takes) and only a handful at each existence will realise the grid system we are in. By realising we can opt out of the game and return the true source.
Sound surreal or insane? Maybe, but I am heading that way in my thoughts. Not such a bad epiphany. Quite a freeing thought in some ways, all anyone can do is come to their own conclusions in their own lifetime/s. Never stop questioning, I say.
On a final note, I wish to leave you with a video I found this morning by 2Cellos. Now that is what I call talent. The cello is another instrument I wish to learn but all good things in time. If we are in a holographic existence, may as well pursue the beautiful side of what it has to offer :)
Love to all, be inspired and be you, love and be loved...